What should i do during the weekends? I watched a movie last night, watched my animes and did my laundry. What else should i do now? i feel so lost. Today is Sunday, and i've been slacking off doing nothing! I can't go out shopping or what not, the allowance is barely enough for me to survive through every month. An update of my stats: I'm 81.5kg at a height of 179cm (WHY CAN'T I GET TO 180!!) That means that my BMI is at 25.5 Total weight loss since entering and now is 6.5kg. I've eaten alot of junk this weekend. hope i don't get more than a kilo back! Muscles have been growing! Skin is getting even darker! I think i'm at least 7 shades darker than what i used to be. My waist size decreased, most of my pants and jeans are super loose now. Even my t-shirts are like super loose now. Until July 2nd, i can't wait for P.O.P.! That's like 10 weeks away. omgggg!
It's been 5 weeks since i've entered army on 25th Feb 2010. And I've been sick for the past week. How have I been you MAY ask me, i'm fine, just waiting for dinner now. (I've also become tanned and with very short hair, my vocab is littered with vulgarities when i'm in camp) Soon after dinner, dress up in my smart 4, put on my boots and jockey cap. Then off i go to that island again. I think I've gained much muscle than when i was during poly. Poly REALLY makes people fat, lazy and weak(For slackers)! And i think i've lost alot of weight, used to be 88kg when i went in. Can't wait to see the results tomorrow! I've been changed, don't ask me why; cause even i myself don't know. I'll write again next week.
I've HAD IT with my bullshit fake posts. I've gotta stop hiding all the feelings i have in me. It really really kills me to have all that wrath, sadness and angst in me. I think only my closests of friends know how i feel. And i better bucks up on my maths. 25 days. I CAN DO IT. And screw all the shit that has happened in the past 3 months. Thanks for listening to me Ben, Tung, Sharon, Aunt Eve. And Ben, i think you're right. I just can't focus on what i need to do. In fact i'm totally lost at what i need to do in life. No goals. No mission. No objective that i need to complete. Another thing on my mind. Why must life have an end? I don't want to die! Whenever i think of it, i'm SCARED. What happens to the consciousness? IF you die, won't it hurt? When your lung give out, doesn't it feel like being choked? I don't want to lose my body. but if my body just can't stay alive forever, then what of me? Argh. Enough with the ranting, I've got s
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